I've lost the happy child in me
Things that used to make me a naive, joyful child during my childhood days.. are long gone.
Where's that excitement in me every Sunday, when I would wake up at 9am to watch the Children Tv Programs on Channel 8?
Where's that anticipation in me every weekends, knowing there will be little surprises or outings awaiting?
Where's that little joy in me, when my dad would buy my favourite cockles and durians and mangosteen, then we will sit on the floor with newspaper spread, eating happily away?
Where's those delightful happiness gone to? Was it meant to be that an adult-world has to be more complicated and messed up? Was it that I didn't cherish my good old childhood days? Was it that I am hoping fat that time could turn back? Or am I simple thinking too much as the number of my age adds on 1 each year? Prolly I no longer can be easily contented with things passing by me without my realisation? Will I be that happy again, if those days are back?
Now why the hell am i reminiscing my childhood? Or maybe.....
the child in me has never left.